Thus Far..
Updates on life since that fateful day or rather days (namely 16 Apr 07 and 19th Apr 07).
Tried moving on. Had a few close frens around on and off to check on me and encourage me. The initial weeks were hell. Pple kept saying its not worth it and so on and so forth. All i said was.. its the past.. i do not wish to point the fingers anymore. All i can say is i've had my self reflection, know wat i've done that resulted in all these. And i would say.. 2 had their fair share of contributions... but i should take the larger blame...
I've cried enuff, still am crying occassionally. I focus life on my new career. Initially was bad coz those things happen during my first month with the compnay. I cudnt focus and was often absent from work. I was been picked on and was the talk of the office. It bothered me alot initially. But after much thoughts, i manage to pick myself up...primarily coz the old me used ot be strong, confident, and has a never say die attitude..Things are looking great thus far. Buried myself in work for almost 12hours daily. Top Newcomer and Top Sales after only just 2 months with the company. Boss even wans me over to help guide some of the old birds but i decline. I have great sense of accomplishment. The recognition, the respect i earned now.. I am proud.. but i am not happy...
Bling Bling coming my way soon as i overachieved my set target for this qtr.. stand at 150% overall now.. Oooooo... got a few plans up... Gym membership with Jess, Archery class with Jerone...many more in plan...
I still have nightmares on and off on that fateful nite. And dreams of hoping to see him again... but i can only hope and wait. Emo is like a roller coaster ride now...up and down, comes and goes with no warning. I cud only numb myself with...
Anyway, I will rise again (sounds so familiar). And in my heart... no one can ever replace him. There can only be one him. Now, i only hold on to the happy memories. I've long forgotten the bad ones... the only reason i am still lamenting, is not on the past.. is on not having his forgiveness.
Gonna go watch some dvds now... :P
Updates on life since that fateful day or rather days (namely 16 Apr 07 and 19th Apr 07).
Tried moving on. Had a few close frens around on and off to check on me and encourage me. The initial weeks were hell. Pple kept saying its not worth it and so on and so forth. All i said was.. its the past.. i do not wish to point the fingers anymore. All i can say is i've had my self reflection, know wat i've done that resulted in all these. And i would say.. 2 had their fair share of contributions... but i should take the larger blame...
I've cried enuff, still am crying occassionally. I focus life on my new career. Initially was bad coz those things happen during my first month with the compnay. I cudnt focus and was often absent from work. I was been picked on and was the talk of the office. It bothered me alot initially. But after much thoughts, i manage to pick myself up...primarily coz the old me used ot be strong, confident, and has a never say die attitude..Things are looking great thus far. Buried myself in work for almost 12hours daily. Top Newcomer and Top Sales after only just 2 months with the company. Boss even wans me over to help guide some of the old birds but i decline. I have great sense of accomplishment. The recognition, the respect i earned now.. I am proud.. but i am not happy...
Bling Bling coming my way soon as i overachieved my set target for this qtr.. stand at 150% overall now.. Oooooo... got a few plans up... Gym membership with Jess, Archery class with Jerone...many more in plan...
I still have nightmares on and off on that fateful nite. And dreams of hoping to see him again... but i can only hope and wait. Emo is like a roller coaster ride now...up and down, comes and goes with no warning. I cud only numb myself with...
Anyway, I will rise again (sounds so familiar). And in my heart... no one can ever replace him. There can only be one him. Now, i only hold on to the happy memories. I've long forgotten the bad ones... the only reason i am still lamenting, is not on the past.. is on not having his forgiveness.
Gonna go watch some dvds now... :P
Developed at
7:14:00 PM on Wednesday, May 30, 2007
Helpless Emotions
I am feeling this now...tears cant stop flowing.. Tell me how to numb this pain....tell me...
没有人在路边等我了
没有人跟我吵架了
我打开了全部的灯
却还是觉得冷
毕竟是爱过的两个人
总觉得你会来敲门
情歌说的都是对的
爱实在很伤人
为什么自由没有
想像中快乐
早知道离别会那么疼
当初还要不要爱你呢
迷了路的我们
走错的不只一个人
我的眼泪是你的责任
你的伤痕也是我给的
迷了路的永恒
当初的誓言太天真
如果终于学会了体谅
爱情再来有没有可能
我还在等
静静的等
Helpless Emotions
I am feeling this now...tears cant stop flowing.. Tell me how to numb this pain....tell me...
没有人在路边等我了
没有人跟我吵架了
我打开了全部的灯
却还是觉得冷
毕竟是爱过的两个人
总觉得你会来敲门
情歌说的都是对的
爱实在很伤人
为什么自由没有
想像中快乐
早知道离别会那么疼
当初还要不要爱你呢
迷了路的我们
走错的不只一个人
我的眼泪是你的责任
你的伤痕也是我给的
迷了路的永恒
当初的誓言太天真
如果终于学会了体谅
爱情再来有没有可能
我还在等
静静的等
Developed at
11:34:00 PM on Tuesday, May 29, 2007
Hanson - The Walk Album (July 07)
I so dig their music.... since 3 Car Garage times....
And I am so excited on this upcoming release.....
Highlighted tracks below does not necessarily mean they are hits. They just represent and speaks for a part of my life :)
1. Ngi Ne Themba (I Have Hope)
2. The Great Divide
3. Been There Before
4. Georgia
5. Watch Over Me
6. Running Man
7. Go
8. Fire on The Mountain
9. One More
10. Blue Sky
11. Tearing It
12. Something Going Around
13. Your Illusion
14. The Walk
15. In A Way
16. I Am
Hanson - The Walk Album (July 07)
I so dig their music.... since 3 Car Garage times....
And I am so excited on this upcoming release.....
Highlighted tracks below does not necessarily mean they are hits. They just represent and speaks for a part of my life :)
1. Ngi Ne Themba (I Have Hope)
2. The Great Divide
3. Been There Before
4. Georgia
5. Watch Over Me
6. Running Man
7. Go
8. Fire on The Mountain
9. One More
10. Blue Sky
11. Tearing It
12. Something Going Around
13. Your Illusion
14. The Walk
15. In A Way
16. I Am
Developed at
2:04:00 PM on Monday, May 28, 2007
Two Lives...
I lead 2 lives now... the first part starts from the time i wake up till 9pm, the 2nd starts from 9pm till i fall asleep... and its on a daily basis...
And i will start blogging soon on a regualr basis..
:)
Two Lives...
I lead 2 lives now... the first part starts from the time i wake up till 9pm, the 2nd starts from 9pm till i fall asleep... and its on a daily basis...
And i will start blogging soon on a regualr basis..
:)
Developed at
2:00:00 PM on
This must be what u felt...i am sorry...
Listen
Beyonce Knowles
VERSE 1:
Listen
To the song here in my heart
A melody I start but can't complete
Listen (mmm)
To the sound from deep within
It's only beginning to find release
Oh, the time has come
For my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside and turned
Into your own, all 'cause you won’t listen
CHORUS:
Listen
I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried
To say what's on my mind
You should have known
Oh, now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what you made of me
I followed the voice you gave to me
But now I've got to find my own
VERSE 2:
You should have listened
There is someone here inside
Someone I thought had died so long ago
Oh, I'm screamin out
And my dreams will be heard
They will not be pushed aside or worse
Into your own, all 'cause you won't listen
CHORUS:
Listen
I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried
To say what's on my mind
You should have known
Oh, now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what you made of me
I followed the voice you gave to me
But now I've got to find my own
BRIDGE:
I don't know where I belong
But I'll be moving on
If you don't, if you won't
Listen
To the song here in my heart
A melody I start but I will complete
2nd part of CHORUS:
Oh, now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what you made of me
I followed the voice you think you gave to me
But now I've got to find my own, my own
This must be what u felt...i am sorry...
Listen
Beyonce Knowles
VERSE 1:
Listen
To the song here in my heart
A melody I start but can't complete
Listen (mmm)
To the sound from deep within
It's only beginning to find release
Oh, the time has come
For my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside and turned
Into your own, all 'cause you won’t listen
CHORUS:
Listen
I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried
To say what's on my mind
You should have known
Oh, now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what you made of me
I followed the voice you gave to me
But now I've got to find my own
VERSE 2:
You should have listened
There is someone here inside
Someone I thought had died so long ago
Oh, I'm screamin out
And my dreams will be heard
They will not be pushed aside or worse
Into your own, all 'cause you won't listen
CHORUS:
Listen
I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried
To say what's on my mind
You should have known
Oh, now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what you made of me
I followed the voice you gave to me
But now I've got to find my own
BRIDGE:
I don't know where I belong
But I'll be moving on
If you don't, if you won't
Listen
To the song here in my heart
A melody I start but I will complete
2nd part of CHORUS:
Oh, now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what you made of me
I followed the voice you think you gave to me
But now I've got to find my own, my own
Developed at
10:52:00 PM on Monday, May 21, 2007
I know how you feel. I will never stop trying. Coz i know never to let go of things I love, even if it means prolly never, i will still wait.
Starts With Goodbye
Carrie Underwood
I was sitting on my doorstep,
I hung up the phone and it fell out of my hand,
But I knew I had to do it,
And he wouldn't understand,
So hard to see myself without him,
I felt a piece of my heart break,
But when you're standing at a crossroad,
There's a choice you gotta make.
[Chorus:]
I guess it's gonna have to hurt,
I guess I'm gonna have to cry,
And let go of some things I've loved,
To get to the other side,
I guess it's gonna break me down,
Like falling when you try to fly,
It's sad, but sometimes moving on with the rest of your life,
Starts with goodbye.
I know there's a blue horizon,
Somewhere up ahead, just waiting for me,
Getting there means leaving things behind,
Sometimes life's so bitter sweet.
[Chorus:]
I guess it's gonna have to hurt,
I guess I'm gonna have to cry,
And let go of some things I've loved,
To get to the other side,
I guess it's gonna break me down,
Like falling when you try to fly,
It's sad, but sometimes moving on with the rest of your life,
Starts with goodbye.
Time, time heals,
The wounds that you feel,
Somehow, right now.
[Chorus:]
I guess it's gonna have to hurt,
I guess I'm gonna have to cry,
And let go of some things I've loved,
To get to the other side,
I guess it's gonna break me down,
Like falling when you try to fly,
It's sad, but sometimes moving on with the rest of your life,
Starts with goodbye,
I guess I'm gonna have to cry,
And let go of some things I've loved,
To get to the other side,
Starts with goodbye,
The only way you try to find,
Moving on with the rest of your life,
Starts with goodbye,
Na na na na na na na.
I know how you feel. I will never stop trying. Coz i know never to let go of things I love, even if it means prolly never, i will still wait.
Starts With Goodbye
Carrie Underwood
I was sitting on my doorstep,
I hung up the phone and it fell out of my hand,
But I knew I had to do it,
And he wouldn't understand,
So hard to see myself without him,
I felt a piece of my heart break,
But when you're standing at a crossroad,
There's a choice you gotta make.
[Chorus:]
I guess it's gonna have to hurt,
I guess I'm gonna have to cry,
And let go of some things I've loved,
To get to the other side,
I guess it's gonna break me down,
Like falling when you try to fly,
It's sad, but sometimes moving on with the rest of your life,
Starts with goodbye.
I know there's a blue horizon,
Somewhere up ahead, just waiting for me,
Getting there means leaving things behind,
Sometimes life's so bitter sweet.
[Chorus:]
I guess it's gonna have to hurt,
I guess I'm gonna have to cry,
And let go of some things I've loved,
To get to the other side,
I guess it's gonna break me down,
Like falling when you try to fly,
It's sad, but sometimes moving on with the rest of your life,
Starts with goodbye.
Time, time heals,
The wounds that you feel,
Somehow, right now.
[Chorus:]
I guess it's gonna have to hurt,
I guess I'm gonna have to cry,
And let go of some things I've loved,
To get to the other side,
I guess it's gonna break me down,
Like falling when you try to fly,
It's sad, but sometimes moving on with the rest of your life,
Starts with goodbye,
I guess I'm gonna have to cry,
And let go of some things I've loved,
To get to the other side,
Starts with goodbye,
The only way you try to find,
Moving on with the rest of your life,
Starts with goodbye,
Na na na na na na na.
Developed at
3:53:00 PM on Tuesday, May 08, 2007
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